*breathe deeply*

its going to be a wonderful day! i can feel it in my bones. you ever have one of those mornings, where you just sortof leap out of bed with a huge smile on your face, ready to take on anything that the world throws in your direction? that was this morning for me. i just feel, full of promise. i'm getting out of this academic slump. i'm turning in all the late crap i had, and turning the other assignments in on time. i'm practicing at least 2 hours a day, and its not crappy practice, its, dayum! i'm getting shit done! practice.

the elegie makes me think of jesus's crucifixition. when i practice it, i can almost feel the scourging, His agony. i think of Him when i play, and it seems to flow better. it gives me chills...

i wonder where we would be if Jesus had not existed. we'd be lost, i'm sure of it. i wonder what would be happening to us if God was apathetic, like He is in so many of the Kurt Vonnegut books i read. how much worse would life be? how much more gruesome would death's face be, snuffing life from every and all? how lost would we roam this life, searching for meaning, for completion?

such are the subjects i ponder these days.