well, guess what, my adoring fans? i have an ULCER. (an ulcer is a hole in the stomach created by over active acid production. the acids is over produced often as a sign of stress, but can also be caused by certain bacteria and virus). how the heck do i get an ulcer?!?! this is like the worst time ever to get a hole in my freaking stomach. juries, exams, blah blah. and my idiot social life.

i tell everyone in the world, avoid getting an ulcer. because this is what its like: you start out just not being interested in food much, you're stressed, you can't get your head straight. then you start feeling sick when you eat. so you go to the doctors, you tell them "i haven't eaten a decent meal in more than a month, whats up" and they test you, and they make you lie on a table and probe around your abdominal region and ask if it hurts, which of course it does, and they take your blood and don't do it right so you have some nasy heroin addict bruise right over the vein. and they tell you that you have an ulcer and then they give you an insanely high doseage of antacids and you take them but still feel a) extremely nauseated b) a searing pain in your stomach or c) desperately hungry. i hadn't eaten anything all damn day, so i tried eating easy mac, and it made me pay, my stomach is grumbling and bubbling and being bitchy. and it aches. and i feel like barfing. at least i'm not hungry anymore, but that will change.

HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?!