hindsight is a biz-natch

like i say, always. don't act like an idiot because one day you will come to regret your behavior. i regret much about my behavior of the past 7 months. actually the last 2 months have been great, but the 5 before that i was a complete and utter moron. those of you who know me, know exactly what i am talking about. and for those of you who don't, tough. leave me alone.

i actually feel more hopeful than i have in the longest time. usually, i find reasons to curse the hopeful and crush their weak optimism with the brunt of my own realism. i need to cool it sometimes. but these days there feels like there is more to be hopeful about. college at western will be excellent beyond everything. i really can't wait to get out of here. i feel like i have accomplished something, getting to college with scholarships. i always figured that i would be beaten out by the smart rich kids of the world, and end up at MCC where there are no dorms or music programs. i was wrong. in this case, being wrong is better.

and there are other things that make me happy as well. new feelings, new places, new things to smell. it is like i am a dog or something. not. i have laid the bad to rest. time to move on.

i only have 21 days of school left. sometimes, when i get shoved out of the way by some giant unruly sophomore or walk into a gaggle of crowing girls gossiping i feel vaguely nostalgic. like maybe next year i'll miss all of the children that wreak havoc on my scholarly pursuits. then i snap out of it. i must be out of my mind. it is all good.

and now for the recent philosophy. if you don't like it, go cry somewhere.

i wish that the entire world was united under one religion sometimes. it seems like most of our problems from day to day stem from religious differences. because when you think about it, with religion entails a code of conduct. if we all had the same code of conduct, there would be much less misunderstanding. one common law to govern and unite. maybe this is communism. but we all know that communism sounded really good in theory. i'm not saying we should share everything and live on communes and accept jobs doled out by the government. i'm suggesting more of a theistic communism. being christian, i don't really have to tell you what religion i would choose for the whole world. so therein lies the problem. how would we choose which one? maybe someday, someone will create another religion that everyone will accept. not likely. besides, it seems like worldy unity is way too much to ask in this day and age.