the itsy bitsy spider

okay. maybe i need to chill.

what inspires this revalation? when i walked into 5th hour orchestra today, mr. staudacher accosted me and started pumping my hand up and down. what is going on, huh? well, he tells me that i have been nominated to be a concerto competition soloist for the youth arts festival.

whoa. back up. ME?? CONCERTO COMPETITION FINALIST?

apparently i am semifinalist, and i have to go to CMU to audition on the 7th of april. with an accompanist. and two full scores. and i can't suck like i did at state on saturday. I am doomed.

why why why? why am i hopeful? i know i will fail. realistically, there is no way that they would choose me over a plethora of much more qualified musicians. so why do i continue with the hoping? hope by definition is the tendancy to disregard logical statisitic and place insanity in the line of credibility. i could not possibly be more moronic.

cello concerto in eminor by elgar