state cryin' shame

or s+e for you cool people that don't know any music current events. i was terrible. i got a 97 out of 100, which is one point less than last year. oh my lord, profficiency III was so difficult, i could have cried. i recieved 50 out of 50 points on my solo, 25 out of 25 on scales, which was pretty good, but then 22 out of 25 on sight reading. ARG!!! i am so dumb!!$%* i should be better than this. i think i was because i messed up one of these rhythms and forgot to take a D.C al fine. wow, go figure. i did that last year. but at least i didn't say "oh crap" like i did last year. ladies and gentleman, i am the very carcariture of ladylike.

but other than my wimpy score, i had a pretty good time. i met this guy there, jonathan reed or something. what an excellent musician. i had never heard the string bass played in that way before by someone my own age. after listening to him for awhile i was compelled to introduce myself. now usually i am a pretty reserved person. i don't just walk up to people and start talking to them. i am plagued with self doubt and shame. or maybe, was. the bane of high school leaves, and i am left here. i like this better. not overly caring about little things. my interest goes to the bigger things now.

now i have to worry about funding college. ideally, michigan state. in fact, i will not settle for anything less. but the question is, where does one find money? no one has hired me yet. hollisters keeps calling me back and sending me away without hiring me. what, do they think i will look or act different each time? I REFUSE TO TAN! NO FAKE N' BAKE FOR HOLLISTERS!

yay! dan and amanda are going to prom! i can't wait. amanda says she bought this dress with her mom with this train thing, so when she pulls it up over her head, she looks like batman. that is cool. prom is going to rock. i will probably end up taking my brother as a date, because he is nice and tall, and i won't have to pay for the whole ticket then. you think i have money? wrong! nick is better at saving than i am. it's a problem. but i don't really need anything else for a while in the way of books and clothes, so any money that i get is saved. i almost wish i wasn't going to be in the european tour orchestra from blue lake this year so i could work and get more money. i HAVE to go to michigan state! suren bagretuni is the best teacher in the state, in the midwest.